Loose Women's Andrea McLean recalls the 'dark and horrible night' she contemplated taking her own life

LOOSE Women star Andrea McLean has recalled the emotional night she considered ending her life.

At her lowest point, the telly presenter, 51, found herself alone in a hotel room consumed by dark thoughts.

An overwhelming combination of money troubles, anxiety and relationship issues had taken Andrea to the brink.

Speaking to the Mirror, she explained: "Unless someone’s been there it’s impossible to describe. It lasted a night and it was the longest night, dark and horrible. I was on the floor, pacing the room and crying.

"The next morning I got up off the floor and went to work. I spent a whole day pretending everything was fine.

"By the time I got home I thought, ‘It’s passed. I still don’t feel right but I don’t want to think about it any more.’ So I never mentioned it.”

Andrea now uses her platform to speak about her mental health struggles in the hope it will help others in similar circumstances.

Last month she told how her attempts to overcome her anxiety came to a crashing halt following a "spat" with her husband Nick Feeney.

Andrea, who has been on anti-anxiety medication since December 2018, told the Daily Mail: "At my lowest point, I was suicidal. This is the first time I've admitted that.

"Alone in my hotel room, I wanted to end it all right then. I felt Nick couldn't see my side of things at all — and if someone who loved me as much as he did failed to see it, what was the point?

"And yet I couldn't do it. I didn't want to hurt my family — Nick, 47, my beloved third husband, and my two wonderful teenagers; 18-year-old Finlay from my first marriage and 13-year-old Amy from my second.

"I thought they would be ashamed that I'd been so weak. I lay on the floor of my room and sobbed."

Andrea said that she had been struggling with her anxiety for months unbeknown to her family and friends.

The TV star recalled breaking down in tears in a supermarket and then another time when she struggled to breathe after an argument with a driver.

She also admitted that her anxiety got so intense that she couldn't bring herself to attend the National Television Awards with her Loose Women co-stars and instead arrived alone after crying on her way to the red carpet.

All her emotions finally came to a crescendo when she broke down in tears in the make-up chair before she was due to front Loose Women last summer.

Her friend and make-up artist Donna urged her to seek help, and eventually Andrea was able to feel hopeful again after seeing a psychotherapist.


EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.

It doesn't discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.

It's the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.

And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.

Yet it's rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.

That is why The Sun launched the You're Not Alone campaign.

The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.

Let's all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You're Not Alone.

If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:

  • CALM,, 0800 585 858
  • Heads Together,
  • Mind,, 0300 123 3393
  • Papyrus,, 0800 068 41 41
  • Samaritans,, 116 123

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