JESSIE J broke down in tears on stage after revealing she suffered a devastating miscarriage.
The pop star performed hours after revealing she was "overwhelmed with sadness" after losing a baby she "decided to have on her own".
During the gig at The Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles, Jessie said: "I decided to have a baby by myself and by a miracle it worked for a little while and yesterday was f*****g s**t.'
"This year has been hands down the hardest year that I’ve ever had to go through.
"In December last year I lost my hearing, I got diagnosed with Menieres. Then I lost my voice which was f*****g awful. Then I lost my baby. I know I'm going to be ok because there is really nothing else to choose in the way I live.
"I’ve never felt more alone than I have felt in the past week."
The heartbroken 33-year-old star shared a photo of herself holding up a positive pregnancy test as well as an emotional quote on her Instagram page this evening.
In the lengthy caption, she bravely explained how she'd been nervous about keeping her pregnancy a secret during a Los Angeles concert this evening.
Tragically, just hours later doctors told her that they could not find her baby's heartbeat.
The singer wrote: "💔 Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant'.
"By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down… After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat 💔
"This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know. What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because Im avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me."
Jessie went on to explain her reason for wanting to go ahead with the concert, sharing: "I have done two shows in two years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way.
"I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best. I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer."
The star, who confirmed her split from boyfriend Max last month and previously dated Channing Tatum, added: "I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again.
I'm still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.
"I'm still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok. I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t. 🫂
"It’s the loneliest feeling in the world. So I will see you tonight LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room."
The star was inundated with messages from her followers, who sent messages of support in the comments, including Pixie Lott who wrote: "I’m so sorry Jessie sending loads of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️"
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