Andrea McLean has opened up about her battle with suicidal thoughts after going through a mental breakdown last year.
The former GMTV weather presenter admitted that her husband Nick Feeney didn't know about the thoughts and later found out through her book.
Andrea, 50, went on to reveal that couples counselling had been "amazing" for her and Nick, who she married in 2017.
Speaking to Hello! magazine, the Loose Women star opened up on her darkest thoughts and how her husband reacted after making the discovery.
"Nick didn't know I had put it in, he didn't even know it had happened.
"I hadn't mentioned it at all. I think it was quite a shock for him. Our disagreement was tiny, I can't even remember what it was about," she said.
Nick later admitted that he found it "really, really tough" to learn what Andrea had been dealing with.
Speaking about therapy, Andrea admitted: "We weren't going because we were in trouble, we were going because I was in trouble."
Loose Women's Andrea McLean admits she considered taking her own life after hitting rock bottom
The mum-of-two detailed her secret breakdown in her book This Girl Is On Fire, admitting: "At my lowest point, I was suicidal. This is the first time I've admitted that.
"Just days after I'd collapsed on my make-up artist Donna, I had an argument with my husband, Nick, and then went away on a work trip."
She added that she was in a "bad state of mind" which later trigger anxiety and other negative emotions.
In an emotional confession, she went on to say: "Alone in my hotel room, I wanted to end it all right then.
"I felt Nick couldn't see my side of things at all — and if someone who loved me as much as he did failed to see it, what was the point?
"And yet I couldn't do it. I didn't want to hurt my family — Nick, 47, my beloved third husband, and my two wonderful teenagers; 18-year-old Finlay from my first marriage and 13-year-old Amy from my second.
"I thought they would be ashamed that I'd been so weak. I lay on the floor of my room and sobbed."
The Glasgow-born star admitted to "putting on a smile" and turning up at work the next day.
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